That I am alive. I don't know why I get this gift today, of just being happy being, I really don't. But I have faith that my HP has a reason for it.
I don't even know. I'm such a different person than I was this time last year. Its like I'm finally letting myself be who I always wanted to be. I was asked once, by a tremendously wonderful woman, "If you become who you want or would like to be, what would you lose?"
Control. I give up control. The universe is perfect, every atom is where it needs to be doing what needs to be done. I cannot change or control people, places or things. But I can put one foot in front of the other, do the next right thing, and have FAITH that its all taken care of. What a tremendous weight to be lifted off my shoulders... The world is doing aiight. I can just be.
I prolly sound all ghey. Sorry. Just having a serious gratitude moment. If you could have been where I was last year, you'd understand :P
Oh. Mah. Gahd. I'm such an emoticon smiley person its laughable (c:
