Is Seebo actually posting something? Why, yes, yes she is -
So. Yeah. Going to be going away here for about a month. Not entirely sure when, hopefully I'll know Friday. I have a lot that's been on my mind, and needless to say on my mind is kind of where I'd like all that to stay for the moment. Sometime soon, before I go, I really want to put some of it down here.
I don't know. Everything just seems so hard right now. I don't know what to do except not do anything, if that makes sense. It does to me. As long as I keep doing nothing, then I can't screw up.
Sigh. Day eight. I wonder if I can actually do this. I wonder if I will actually do this. I want to, but I also just want to screw up now and get the screwing up part out of the way.
Whatever. Those of you - if any - who read this might not have any idea what I'm talking about, but then again some do.
All I know is I just want to get going, so I can get on with this already. I have to remind myself not to think, and to lean into the pain as to maximize the growth potential. See? Just too much right now for me to put it all down.
S.
3 comments:
Big HUGE Hug Sweetie.
Love you,
S
Hey Seebo I once had an insight that may help. it was something to the effect that when we learn to love hell then we will be in heaven. I have used that many times when I feel frustrated, beaten down, and hopeless. I just have to say this because it seems like you need a litttle perspective on joy and all that.
So I hope I didn't offend you by coming across preachy. I'll stop now.
Not preachy at all, liberaltreehugger, in fact its greatly appreciated.
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